That "Oh So Cool!" Moment

Do you have any moment, when you were kid, or younger than now, you saw others did something and you be like 'wow that's so cool!' then it became your little silly wish
Now you've just realized, you doing exactly the same thing accidentally. But after you did so, you just thought, 'oh I did it?';  'so, this is how it feels?'

well, here mine (some of my silly things):

1. Typing with ten fingers.
Inspiration : Agnes Monica on screen when I was in elementary school XD haha, funny but that's true. I watched her on drama I forgot what the title is. But in that scene, Agnes Monica was a high school student who started her romantic story and she was chatting with her crush using mIRC, lol, *you know by that time mIRC was so populer*, and she did typing with ten fingers, she typed so fast and I just like "wow, that's so cool"
Time goes by and then when I was in senior high school, my first curriculum on computer subject is typing with ten fingers! Hha! I just knew there was a technique how to master your keyboard so you can typing fast (moreover there's software so you can train your fingers to get used to). Of course I took that subject seriously. Now, I used to type with ten fingers and I didn't find it as cool anymore but useful especially in a work place, hehe. However, thanks Agnes!

2. Whoever became pak RW was cool.
Inspiration came when I was kid, pak RW was invited to mosque to gave a speech for Pesantren Kilat's Opening, that was my first time to saw pak RW and he looks like sooooooo cool, wise and charismatic. I don't know what kind of mantra he had, but he was so charismatic! Even his house, his family, everything. (I knew his house because I volunteered myself to ask his signature). At that time I was thinking, "no wonder he became pak RW, because he is so cool, pak RW is a leader, higher than pak RT and leader should be cool. I doubt my dad can doing so, well maybe he can't."
Oh yeah, I know I'm not a good child for underestimate my dad could doing so, because my dad wasn't as cool as pak RW :d  *sorry dad*
But the fact didn't say so, when I was in senior high school, my dad was a pak RW, elected twice but then he chose to retire himself because he was a liltle bit more bussy in his office.
Well, maybe that's a code the universe want to give me ; my dad was cool enough to became pak RW.
Okay Dad, you're cool now. \m/

3. Having three siblings.
My cousin has three siblings. He and me used to play together when were kid. He has one brother and two sisters. They were so cute and solid, helping each other, sometimes argue and fight but sometimes did a fun thing together. The cool thing was their home never felt so bored and silent. There are always something fun to do with. I did envy him.
So I thought it was so cool for having three siblings, it's enough, your home won't be so silent (at that moment I only have a brother, and he like be sooooo quite and passive),
and now... I have three brothers. My mom was pregnant when I was in junior and senior high school (in 2003 and 2007). Since that, my home is very noisy by these krucil. They (the last child and the third) argued and fighted a lot. Sometimes I need to separate them, or my another brother, or my mom and my dad will do. X)  So that's how it feels, being a first child, and having three brothers. Quite tiring, sometimes annoying, but overall, it's fun!

4. Updating status or blog in english.
Well, the third above is always came when I was kid, but this fourth is when I was in university on my first semester, hehe. Inspiration came from my friends who fluent in english. As I entered a university, Facebook was quite popular, and so did Twitter. Some of my friends updating their status on english, and I found it so cool. Then I knew blogspot so I made my own blog, I follow my friend and I found her posting in english, It just like, "wow, She is so cool!" <3>

I just have no brave enough to update status in English. Whispering myself "kapan ya gw bisa update blog in english, ngimpi kali" I found it toooo far away, to impossible for me to be able to communicate in english. In short, I doubt myself.
But then life brings me here. After I graduated, my mom insisted me to learn english in Pare, Kediri East Java (known as Kampung Inggris). Now here I am :D *Even my english still messy. Hehe. Sorry for that*

But the point of all of this is Allah does listen our prayer and breaks our doubt.

1. Never doubt yourself or other. For the future, we never know what could next happen to us. Sometimes, we don't believe we could make it, or we thought it was so difficult to be achieved, but Allah didn't say so.

2. The things you are wishing for is not the way things really are. 

Contohnya pas ngeliat pak RW begitu keren, tapi dibalik itu semua ternyata lumayan ribet juga jadi RW. Dikit-dikit ada yang ngetok pintu, dikit-dikit ada yang minta cap lah, or tanda tangan lah, dan rumah suka rame ampe malem. Bahkan sempet ngeluh karna posisi kamar yang deket sama ruang tamu, pas mau tidur masih aja kedengeran suara haha-hihi nya para bapak-bapak itu. Pas ngeluh kayak gitu, berasa diingetin sama Allah "Lah dulu kan lo yang pengen". Oiya juga... jadi gajadi deh ngeluhnya. Malu ama keinginan sendiri yang aneh. pas dikabulin, malah ngeluh.

3. Nah, bisa jadi nih... segala hal yang kita dapet, punya dan alami sekarang adalah hal yang dulu kita idamkan, inginkan, atau impikan. Cuma kita ga sadar aja sama  yang kita punya sekarang. Karna mungkin itu tadi, even it just our little silly wish. Coba deh, pikirkan sejenak, kira-kira apa aja dulu little silly wish kamu, "Oh iya ya, dulu pengen kerja disini, dulu pernah punya keinginan gini.. gitu.. dll"  I bet you must be have one or some.

Well, Allah answered my prayer in a beautiful way and unexpected as always, even for my little silly wish :"")

Then I should believe for the duaa that haven't answered yet, He has a perfect timing, and what should I do now is always keep believing and of course keep praying :)

*Happy fasting on the twelfth day folks!

Kejadian Lucu

“Kalau bisa, ga Jakarta deh”

“Ga kebayang tinggal di Jakarta”

“PNS atau bankir, tar dulu deh”

Keinginan jaman mahasiswa dulu untuk ga kerja di Jakarta, bahkan sangat rela jika harus ditempatkan di kota manapun di seluruh Indonesia, asal jangan Jakarta. Noted. Asal tidak Jakarta. I just couldn’t imagine how people could survive there, and I thought maybe I can’t make it. Atau untuk menyelami pekerjaan menjadi PNS atau bankir, had no idea why I don’t want to join at that time.

But life didn’t say so,  

Here I am..

Setahun lebih enam bulan saya sudah di Jakarta, dan belum tahu sampai kapan. Meski aliran doa untuk kerja di tempat asal masih tetap dilantunkan.  Dan kini, masuk setengah tahun join menjadi bankir. Jadi akhir kuartal tahun 2014 kemarin, saya malah didekatkan dengan dua pilihan, PNS dan bankir.

Antara pengen ketawa dan miris, kalau inget omongan dulu terus ngeliat kondisi sekarang. Antara ga nyangka juga. Ternyata sudah sejauh ini, kehidupan membawa saya.

Been wondering, questioning, complaining...

Kok?

Kenapaa?

Diantara ribuan jenis pekerjaan, dan ribuan kota di seluruh Indonesia bahkan dunia, kenapa begini?

Semacam diejek atau diuji, entah lah.

Sampai suatu saat teman saya bilang, “justru mungkin disitu poinnya. Justru karna kamu berpikir kamu ga akan bisa bertahan, Tuhan pengen ngasih tau kamu. You could survive anyway.”

Hhmm... interesting point of view.

Dan sempat cerita sama guru saya tentang kejadian lucu ini. She said, “Justru semakin kamu ingin menjauh, akan semakin didekatkan. So just let it be. Mencintai sekadarnya, membenci juga sekedarnya”

Mungkin ada benarnya juga.

Well, beranjak dari situ,
Apa saya harus benci sama Lee Seung Gi atau Lee Min Ho?
Biar didekatkan?

#BarisanBubarGrak #NgarepBinNgayal #GakTahuDiri #NamanyaJugaNgayal #YaSekalianTinggi :p  

The Contemplating 2014

Well, maybe 2014 wasn't my year but I don't want to waste my time at all,

I may failed to passed somethings that I want but I don't want to fail taking the lessons of it. 

Thats why my priority today is to focus on enjoying myself and to live the moment without worry, zero expectation. 

So happy new year!!! 

May 2015 become greater than a year before :) aamiin
 

The Dots

Sometimes my head full of the most possible scenario and wondering what would next happen after this? 
Too much thinking, too much assuming, too much prediction.
But life is funny. Life is comedy in a long shot as someone said.
Tons of possible scenario on my head are much  more failed. God's script is the best and unexpect as well.

we cry, we fall, we sad, we scream, we blame, we mad, we laugh, we smile.

Like or not, those are the process that made us now.

"You can't connect the dots looking forward; you can only connect them looking backwards. So you have to trust that the dots will somehow connect in your future. You have to trust in something - your gut, destiny, life, karma, whatever. This approach has never let me down, and it has made all the difference in my life." - Steve Jobs-

Akan datang suatu masa...

"Aku khawatir dengan suatu masa yang rodanya dapat menggilas keimanan
Keyakinan hanya tinggal dalam pemikiran, yang tak berbekas dalam perbuatan
Banyak orang baik tapi tak berakal, ada orang berakal tapi tak beriman
Ada lidah fasih tapi berhati lalai
Ada yang khusyuk namun sibuk dalam kesendirian
Ada ahli ibadah namun mewarisi kesombongan iblis, 
Ada ahli maksiat rendah hati bagai sufi,
Ada yang banyak tertawa hingga hatinya berkarat,
Ada yang banyak menangis karena kufur nikmat,
Ada yang murah senyum namun hatinya mengumpat, 
Ada yang berhati tulus tapi wajahnya cemberut,
Ada yang berlisan bijak namun tak memberi teladan,
Ada pezina yang tampil menjadi figur
Ada yang punya ilmu tapi tak paham
Ada yang paham tapi tak menjalankan
Ada yang pintar tapi membodohi
Ada yang bodoh tapi tak tau diri
Ada orang beragama tapi tak berakhlak 
Ada yang berakhlak tapi tak berTuhan

Lalu, diantara semua itu, dimana aku berada?"

- Ali bin Abi Thalib

Something wrong?

There's something wrong when you feel so demotivated and demoralised in the morning and feeling energized when evening comes, and so lazy facing the monday and so ecxcited welcoming weekend. There's something wrong. Something wrong happened. 

Is it you or your activity, one should be changed.

Dunia Sekitar

My friend said to me  that I barely chat or tell my personal life's problem just like the way they do. 

"seems you have no problem in your life, or you just simply didn't get a big deal with that", they said.

But hey, honestly, it doesnt mean I don't have any story to tell, but every time I want to complain about my personal life's problem I used to think "am I the only one who suffer? maybe others too, but they just didn't tell their problem to the world". 

So sometimes, thats what makes me to keep secret my own problem. Just let God be my only Listener. even somehow, I should share some my stories to keep myself sane, hehe.

and randomly found this song in youtube, this song is just brilliant yet inspiring, I strongly agree with the lyrics, it also represent what I write before. Just love a whoooooole package of this! the song, the lyrics, the singer, and the videoclip also X))

For this song tell about simply love life : gratitude. :))

here, if you want to see how awesome song of Maliq d'essential is..

"Dunia Sekitar"

Btw, it's been a week for us facing Ramadhan. so, how is your Ramadhan so far?

well, since this month is a blessed one, so it's better for us having some targets. Everyone can have a difference targets, depend on their self. The most importance is we will become a better version of ourselves. So, you have yours, I have mine, hehe, just hope we will istiqomah (consistent)  ;)

So, happy fasting all! :D

May Allah grant us blessing more and more :) aamiin