Lyfe

I’ve been juggling with – what should I reach on this stage age- okay, I know, comparing yourself is not a good things. But when your close friends already reach theirs, then you’re gonna start to think, when is my time. I keep reminding myself that Allah timing is better. But facing those things wholeheartedly is very very different story. You know, it’s not as easy as it sounds.*easier said than done, uh?

So when you had the chance, and you thought, okay, maybe this is the time, no more denying my feeling then things went wrong, or maybe not as smooth as I expected. 

I was stress. I was confuse. I was upset. I was sad. I was feel unfortunate. I was asking, whhyyy God, whyy.

But what funny is, when I sat next to my mom on the car,

Mom: are you catch a cold?

Me: no

Mom: are you getting cough? Or dizzy?

Me: no

Mom: ...

Me: what? Something weird or do I look tired so much?

Mom: no, you smell differently.

Me be like: Smell? What?!?

Mom explained, she has such a sensitive nose, can detect correctly if someone getting catch a cold, or dizzy, or stressed, or maybe you just tired, she said.

I smile.  

I mean, I am not physically sick, but mentally tired. Is that so obvious? :')
And what funny is my mom can smell it, haha, literary smell. #buibukpower

So when Ramadhan comes, I feel I need to bring myself closer to God, because this is the good timing, eventhough I still haven’t found the meaning yet of what recently happened to me, but ikhlas first is the top thing to do. When you expect nothing but Allah.

Fortunately, this is the 6th day of Ramadhan, and I feel blessed, sometimes I stumble upon on the quote or ayat in Quran that sooo related to me, it feels like Allah wants to communicate with me, He wants to tell me, everything is going okay and all I just to do is believe.

Allah is here.

Allah is near.

Bismillah.