I once
started thinking that to be a mom, wife, daughter, sister, daughter in law, you
named it, moreover if you work at a company, it should be exhausting. Just
couldn't imagine that. Make sure your baby eats well, ironing your husband's
clothes before he's going to work, make up-ing yourself (because you wont get
miserable for going to work) and then go to work, stressor from the workplace,
traffic jam craziness, pumping in office, and so on.
For me whose
introvert (that need alone time to recharge), it would be sooooooo exhausting
if the cycle is on and oonnnn.
Maybe I couldn't make it. So thats why I have a plan someday I will resign and focus on caring my family (with husband's permission of course): staying at home, focusing bearing my children later, welcoming my husband when he's back from his office.
In social media, I follow some bloggers and selebgrams in ig, they are full time mother while at the same time running their own business from home or having a freelancer job. and I agree with that, instead of working with labor contract with minimum office hours you should faced, by having your own business or being a freelancer worker you can manage yourself to do your work (flexible time), but in the same time can fulfill your self development (not so bored for being at home all along day), moreover you will have time to take care of your family. (this is the most important thing). Noted.
Even tough having your own business or freelancer sometimes will have a tight/hectic time as well, but thats ok. at least it is better than working in company and getting stuck in traffic jam that really drown you.
Actually, I envy them. I want to be like them. For those who has a lot activity (lets call it productive) but still can having a quality time for family, also being an active user for social media--blogging. Such an enjoying life!
How could
that be?
but again,
the same question pop up in my mind, can I?
with that
double, or triple or even more the role that I should take at the same time.
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Since I
write my thesis (skripsi in bahasa), my mother insisted me to take magister. at
that time I refused because I want to work first. She told me that being a
lecture is the best job for mother, you'll have a job and having time to take
care of your family at the same time. That is very different if you work at a
company.
She told me
it thousand times. I have thousands reason too;
- I want to
take magister abroad (while I did nothing for this)
- I have no
money yet to apply so I would apply scholarships someday (just lip service, I
did nothing also for this)
- it should
be tiring for working and studying at the same time, and soooo many other
reasons.
The more I
deny, the more she insist me.
Until one
day, in short, I was registered (finally after three years denying) wkwk
Her voice
somehow reflect her enthusiasm for me to say yes.
One moment
when we were talking about the interview, I asked her, "If they asked me
what my motivation is, what should I say? while actually
I was forced by you" I joked of course.
She reply
directly and clearly, "Birrul walidain, that's okay"
I was speechless
for sure.
Birrul walidain.
All right.
That is the
most reasonable motivation ever.
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So my
current condition is managing those time in weekday and weekend: managing time between
my working and studying life. between my sleeptime and my assignments. between
my individual and group assignments. between my duty and my personal time.
I was
somehow miserable (especially in the hectic time). the black area right under
my eyes is getting black :d
got only
chance to sleep 3 - 4 hours (the worst was only 2 hours, and I was sooooo
sleepy at work haha). but in the same time I still need to focus to handle it
all, both work and study. and the tips for maximizing it all is by living the
present: If I was in office, my mind shouldn't wander or thinking about study
and vica versa. while for me whose an overthinking person, it is sooo
challenging.
I also lose
some weight (maybe it was the best part of all of this haha),
but then I
realize, isn't it productive?
maximazing
your time. Doing some things in one time?
the things
that I always admire to do someday?
I was
mesmerized by myself that actually I can passed it all :p hehe (it's been 2,5
month anyway)
so when the
week is very tightly hectic and I feel so tired as well, I remind myself
"Thats
okay Mil, it's time to learn. learn how to balancing your life.
It's the
opportunity to learn how to manage those things at the same time before you
become wife, mother, worker, daughter, daughter in law and so on.
Come on, let's cheers
to this!"
Ok, let's cheers to this.
Ok, let's cheers to this.
